Loneliness and Bipolar Disorder

So I just looked and I have over 3,000 friends on facebook.

How is that even possible?  How can i keep up with all of them?  How can they all keep up with me?


The answer is I can’t.  And they can’t.

Let me be honest:

There is a loneliness that I have been feeling lately.

I have tons of activity on social media, tons of people interested in the projects my husband and I are working on, lots of friends that text me every once in a while.

But still there is this steady loneliness that sits with me when no one else is around.

I have been through some of the toughest months of my life recently.

I tripped.

I went to a hospital.

And what happens to all of that social media and texting and emailing activity when that happens?  It comes to an abrasive halt.

Something I am learning is that bipolar disorder and loneliness go hand in hand.  There is no one on this planet that will understand what it is like to have my brain.

Have you heard the saying, “Walk a mile in my shoes?”  How about we walk a mile in each other’s brains?  (I wish we could all think about that when interacting with other humans.  What would it be like to have their brain?)

It is a lovely and scary and intense and exciting and magical brain that I have.  It is just hard to be bipolar and to simultaneously feel known and loved and supported at all times, without being judged harshly for being the “girl with the bipolar disorder blog.”

I get lonely sometimes.  So many friends, and yet sometimes I feel completely on my own.  (Thank God it is only sometimes.  And thank God for my husband, who makes me feel safe and fiercely loved and pursued every day.)

At the end of the day I have my core group of supporters (including Jason aka God) that I know will always love me unconditionally.  And that is all I need in this life.

So, Loneliness, you can literally go to hell.




  1. Hi Genevieve,

    I found you first because of your incredible voice and Hella Cravings song!

    But then I saw your blog, and I became even more impressed with you. It’s so brave for you to share your struggle. Thank you very much for doing so.

    I hope you have an amazing 2016!

  2. Hi Genevieve,

    I first found you because of your *amazing* voice and Helle Cravings song 🙂

    But then I found your blog, and I became even more impressed with you. It is so brave of you to share you struggle. Thank you for doing so. I can only imagine how comforting it must be for others with similar and how much it must make them feel less alone when they read about your story.

    In any case, keep up the amazing work and Happy 2016!

  3. Hey G (I know. I take the easy road here….)

    Welcome to the bp club. I have been struggling with the dark side of bp since 1984 and full blown madness since 1993 so without totally knowing how your brain is giving it to you, I know loads about how the craziness works.

    So I feel you Dear.

    Thanks a lot for sharing. I feel less alone because of you! Stay cool. Stay happy. And most importantly: enjoy the good side of bp. It’s all a blessing and a curse. Take care of yourself but allow yourself to take out the positive of it all.


    Ps. This reply leaves my hands in Europe. I am Danish so that’s how far you’ve gone…. (((:

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