I was wrong.

I guess my fuck you phase is still going… well… I did say that it was coming to an end.


To be honest:

I’m pissed.

I’m pissed because I had a trip this weekend.

I’m pissed at God for making me this way.

I’m pissed at everyone that doesn’t get it, and thinks that I can control it.

I’m pissed when people don’t use my language and they still use the words “mental illness” and “manic episode” or “psychotic.”

I’m pissed when my husband and I get in fights over this.

I’m pissed at my family for not understanding.

I’m pissed at myself for not understanding them.


I don’t know what it is like to be on the other side.

I do know what it is like to be on mine.







  1. Hang in there Genevieve. I’m not sure if you know but we share the same affliction. I have bipolar depression. I completely understand what you feel, what your pissed about, and what sucks about it. But, as Im sure you know, there are happiner days. Try to stay positive. Now, I’m not saying to ingore your feelings, as they are valid and need to be explored but at the same time try not to dwell. If you ever need someone to talk to, that may get it better than anyone, let me know. Im here. I wish you happiness and all the best

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